If there would be light on the little dark side of us?

Recently I was thinking about how people like to post and publish on social media the most wonderful things in their lives. I won't be a hypocrite; I do the same. I post mostly the nicest pictures of myself, the best places I have been and the best food I enjoyed and it may give people an idea that everything always goes well and everything is so perfect and we all know that isn't exactly true.

Nobody wants others to see the worst of themselves and we try to impress people with our best. As we sometimes feel that we won't be accepted or won't be admired when we feel bad or show them the other side of us.. the dark side.

For instance, I have pictures of me overweight which from time to time I hated to see.. hahahaha! And then I thought, well, that was me, right? I just had a bigger layer of fat which now it's a bit gone.. (I still want to lose some more, of course!) and it just hit me: that is just fat. That person was still me. I am that person and why doesn't she deserve to feel good and loved even with that extra fat?

Funny how we like to impress others with the best things. But it's just natural to want to be loved and feel we belong. Even the most dangerous criminals still want to be loved and seek someone's approval. It's a natural behavior. But why aren't we also happy about ourselves when we are down or not looking our best? Sometimes I wonder, if we don't like ourselves in that way, do we need to accomplish something to feel better? Do we need someone else telling us that we are accepted so that we will finally believe? Of course we all go through things and we all need to improve some area of our lives or else it will be impossible to live in society. As we are not perfect... Some of us may find difficult to look at the mirror and see the imperfections and we hear sometimes: "you can change what needs to be changed, but what we can't change, we need to learn how to accept it and live with it". But how do we know the difference between what needs to be changed and what we have to accept? I guess that is the challenge.

If we find difficult to get to know ourselves and see who we are and what we want... wow... imagine two lives merged together?! Doesn't that sound like a recipe for disaster?  hahaha.. Think with me: If I don't know exactly what I want, I mean, if sometimes I think this is right and later I think, not it's not right, so I don't know exactly what I want. It's not carved in stone, right? So, if we don't know, imagine walking along with someone else who also doesn't know? I think that if people are around us and willing to take steps and move towards a goal, a plan, a dream, a common destination, I guess the hard edges will have to be smoothed and untrimmed branches will have to be cut out eventually so that this road will be walked and this dream may be lived. However trimming sounds like a lot of work and smoothing edges?! That kind of hurts... doesn't it?

Once you find out who you are and learn to accept and live with your imperfections and have the humility to change what needs to be changed, I think that this may be a good start towards a life of joy and fulfillment. Then, at that moment you look at yourself and know the dark side, you will feel ok to know that you are going somewhere. You remember the old days and since the moment you realized that you have learned something, this gives you joy, because you are ok with what is in the past and now you are free to enjoy today, even when it may seem still dark now, you know that this will also pass, and you will get to another point. But first, it's nice to enjoy the exact moment of right now, because when the now is here, soon it will be yesterday and you can't see it anymore because another moment will come.

Alright, this was a bit too deep now, and I feel like I drank a whole bottle of wine, however, it was just green tea... hahahaha! I am going to get a new fresh cup of tea now... (deep conversation, very deep...)